An Old Problem Comes Back...

A few days ago while online, my ex-boyfriend signed on and sent me a message, sounding like he urgently wanted to speak to me. I messaged him back a hello, and he said he'd like to speak on the phone. With fear in the pit of my stomach, I said that would be fine. Deep down, I had some inclination of what was coming. That feeling was confirmed when Nathan, (the same guy who visited here for New Years and made me feel like crap), told me he was searching for a job back up here.. My stomach suddenly turned into mush, as I just couldn't believe what I'd just heard. Then he said it: "When people are asking why I'm doing this, I tell them that I want to be closer to my family...and there is this girl up there..." I felt like crying out uncontrollably and yelling out: What do you mean? You hate me! We don't even talk anymore! We're over! You cheated on me and didn't care how you hurt me! But I didn't say any of those things. As a matter of fact, I barely said anything at all.. He said that he wants to get back together..that he wants to give us another chance.. WHY??? What good would it do but bring all that pain back up to the surface all over again? He wants me to come down south to stay with him for a month, that he'd already planned out, this summer...WHY??? He wrote me and told me that he wants me to be part of his life....WHAT FOR?? Oh please god, don't let his intentions be serious.. And you know the sad part...while I talk to my friends about this situation with a good logical outlook...that's not how I really feel at all. As a matter of fact...I am incredibly confused, and my emotions, which are ridiculous, seem as though they are getting the better of me... :( Oh lord, please help me to act logically, to not be overcome and undone by my innate feelings for this man.. He's already proven it.....he could never love me..