Was I Wrong?

I had not seen Victor all week, but I wanted to give him something that would make him feel special. So yesterday I typed out this little note, "inviting him" to a special dinner at my place. It would be at 7:00 and then I threw in an optional "matinee" for afterwards--a nice movie of his choice. So I made some homemade pizza, lit the apartment with candles, put on some soft romantic music, and waited. He came on schedule, appearing tired but happy. He gave me a hug that made me melt instantly. I served dinner--he loved the pizza, which made me very happy--not so much the desserts I attempted, but it was ok because he ate more pizza... :) Then he went back home to get his blanket and pillow, (as they were required for the matinee..), and we reclined on a layer of blankets and pillows on the floor, watching a movie on my mini dvd player and cuddling. Soon he became stiff though, so we moved up to the bed, me giving him plenty of room to sprawl out. We were relaxed, comfortable, and enjoying the movie and one another's company. But then we switched spots so that I was laying in front of him and he was holding me. It was very nice. But then he started making noises and breathing heavy, and I felt something hard pressing into my back....whoops... He started to lose control and wanted to take me right there. I asked him if he remembered what I'd told him in the beginning about waiting until marriage. He said yes, but yet he still expected me to start getting wild. When I refused, he got all upset and got up to leave. By then the movie was over. I gave him the other untouched pizza to take home, but I don't think that was any consolation. He left without a kiss or even a goodnight, and I was left feeling hurt and upset. Was I wrong? Should I just say "what the hell" and just give it up to him? Am I being cruel and making him feel like less than a man, or undesirable because of this? Are my values ridiculous? It certainly felt that way at that moment. Maybe my inviting him over was sending him a different message. Maybe it was the entirely wrong thing to do...

1 Comments:
I agree. do not give in to him. that is something precious. please I know it is hard but the right guy will wait for you and respect totally. I am a guy and I wish i did not make some girls have sex with me
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