Stuck...

I got myself into this mess--thought I could play with fire without getting burnt I guess. But not the case---obviously! And now I am stuck... Not only have I still been seeing the man down the hall, but I've been going nuts over him. Friday night I knocked to say hello, and he answered, naked, as usual.... I asked him if he wanted to watch a movie. (Again I felt guilty for treating him poorly, and I also felt a tad bit lonely.) He said he would after he finished his laundry, which would take about half an hour. Then I went back to my place, felt motivated, and began cleaning and doing laundry myself. In almost no time at all, there was a knock on the door. It was him, wearing a big goofy grin. He looked so cute.. I grabbed the big stack of dvds I own (all 6 of them) and followed him to his place. We watched Happy Gilmore, a good majority of it actually, before the stuff started to happen again.. Unfortunately I didn't stop him, feeling extremely horny myself, and I just submitted, which made him lose control even more... Before I knew it, I was participating something I'd never done before and never thought of doing-------e v e r! (I believe they name this thing after a number..) Then we took a shower....together..... And afterwards we laid out on his bed watching another movie, him falling asleep as he held me. That was Friday.... Saturday I baked him about 70 peach, cherry, strawberry, and blueberry pies in those mini tins for his lunches. Then yesterday, however, he wanted to see me again. Content just to be with him, I came over with my blanket. He wasn't content with just being together though, wanting more... I got scared and told him to stop. He didn't understand what was wrong----it's as if everything I told him about wanting to remain a virgin didn't sink in. He was clueless. And now I'm stuck. Being a lonely romantic has brought me to this... So now, how will I get out of this? He keeps saying things like "when we do it" when I told him right off. Well, if that all he wants from me then he's going to have to get it pretty quick that I'm not the one for that. Creep. And I'm such an idiot for letting it get out of hand like this! Well, there's only one way to stop it...