Wandering Alone

It has been ages since my last post, and since then I have come to one conclusion: I am SO alone. Just found out that a girl at work, younger than me, got engaged. Her boyfriend proposed to her over the weekend. She's wearing a rock the size of a grape, and now because of this, everyone is buying her gifts and treating her like a queen. And all because some man wants her. I cannot help but be envious. Why doesn't anyone want me? Why am I considered less than human because of it? What is wrong with me that weak, shallow, self-centered women all end up with someone while I am thrown to the curb like foul refuse? And why must women at work, like her, who are useless be rewarded every 2 seconds for taking a shit when I don't even recieve a positive comment when I am dancing circles around them? Why will my boss keep those jerks while he's going to get rid of me? Is it because being "desireable" is more important than putting forth effort or caring? When I was younger, I was never "desireable" enough to be picked for a team. It took me having to prove myself to the extreme--by setting multiple school records and winning a state championship--for even the slightest consideration by my peers and teachers. Yet again it is the same. I must be THE BEST in order to be considered at all while others have only to work their jaws and wiggle their asses for recognition. Unless I become the next President of the United States, no one will ever like or care about me. And I can do all the projects I want at work, but if I don't have a man in my life, I might as well resign myself to life as an unemployed failure.