Exotic Debauchery

Yes. It has been a long time. But emotions have been running wild, and times have been turbulent. Not much of an excuse, but here goes... So, Nathan did come up at the end of last month. He did call me up to come see him at his friend's house, and I did go see him. But not withstanding the reassurance of my trusty two-wheeled transport to take the focus away from my failed appearance and bumbling awkwardness. Most of the conversation I had was exchanged with Nathan's friend "Samuel" anyhow, so life was good. One lifeless hug/pat on the back from Nathan, and I was out the door with my trusty bike, heading for home after a fairly painless hour in the company of some really nice people--Nathan's friends. So I'm free from that. The next encounter I had with a man took place during the next few days after the meeting. This is where my title comes in... Yes--I had my, dare I say, second sexual encounter with a man ever. And how we met--very shady. He was a nut I met online. We were both horny and alone, but had absolutely nothing in common. Bad enough that he smoked and I didn't, but our values and intellects also clashed quite blatantly. So yes--you could call this the closest thing I've ever had to a "one-night stand". We hated each other, yet wanted each other, so we slept together at his place on a few separate ocassions last week until finally he realized that I wasn't going to let him have sex with me. So needless to say that didn't last although things did get quite crazy the last night. However, frustration reached it's peak and the next day he called me to tell me what I already knew...that we didn't "click". No kidding! You feel you are a superior being for writing make believe stories in high school. I prefer someone more down-to-earth and have long since put my teenage years behind me. So no, we didn't click. So at this point now my dealings with men are next to none. Recently I've been talking with the neighbor again...and today I stopped by to watch some tv with him...but nothing more between us anymore. Tomorrow he is going to stop by for dinner, but we are just friends now, so it will be relaxing. But needless to say, I will keep you posted more often now... Who knows, maybe there is real romance out there somewhere and I will discover it this summer...